It is often strange that we feel alone most of the time. Not because there is none near us, but because we are convinced that we are strangers to people around us. Often when we are surrounded by family or friends we realize that we don't belong there... How queer, but that's just our mind pretending to be to be neglected or perhaps our lonely self that repels every external attempt of coming closer to us! We want to be alone, but we need company too!! Man is such a confusing being... The secret to living is not in feeling alone when you have company and wanting company when you are alone... Life is best the other way around. To simply listen to people, to speak something silly, being along and being present at the given moment, and when alone just relaxing the mind, listening to the calm, breathing in the peace and letting loose yourself for your mind to wander free the wild... I have noticed during my lonely walks that I often feel the need of company, my heart sags when ...
When I was a little girl I used to be afraid of darkness, light was my world of wonders... But as I grew light became my worst fear.. You might think why.. Because light helps me see.. Sight? why do I hate light because of my sight?? Light revealed the constant eyes staring at me, strong hands reaching to grasp at me, dangerous smiles, people in beguiles and darkness hides it all away.. I don't see in the darkness and people don't see me , I feel safe. Light makes me visible as well as them... When night descents it wraps me in the safety of darkness one which I felt only in my mother's womb. I remember that even I enclose within me that safe chamber of darkness.. The next day again as light tears through the darkness revealing me, that safe chamber of darkness becomes my sole weakness which again signals the eyes, the hands and the smiles my way... But then again I comfort myself that one day a new soul will feel safe again in my chamber of darkness preparing for the world outside.. to become my pride...
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